シンの日記

shinnonikki — Tue, 10 Jan 2012 05:22:44 +0000

why always end up in disappointment.

hopes are rubbish.

shinnonikki — Mon, 09 Jan 2012 09:10:09 +0000

if only you could.. and i wish you would.

but it will never happen

Write a Journal?

shinnonikki — Fri, 06 Jan 2012 07:23:01 +0000

I have an idea of getting a new journal book and write in it instead of blogging.

I like it the traditional way ;) lol

it’ll be cool to have photos pasted in it but printing them would be a chore.. and problem is, I haven’t found a nice one yet.

Hmmm… it’s hunting time (:<

shinnonikki — Tue, 03 Jan 2012 08:01:51 +0000

Everyday i cry when i miss her.

There isn’t a time someone is there to comfort me

because i only cry when i am alone.

but sometimes i wish i would cry in front of someone and have him/her hug me and say it’s alright.

shinnonikki — Tue, 03 Jan 2012 02:32:53 +0000

Early morning cried reading Tuesday with Morrie, missing Mom.

I guess we all do cry alone thinking of her.

I should have read this instead of the Have a Little Faith book at that time.

I should have listened to Morgan.

Yes, I’m regretting but there’s no point.

Mummy, if you can see us.. I’m missing you badly.

Can’t I dream of you for just one night?

Somebody

shinnonikki — Tue, 27 Dec 2011 08:42:03 +0000

text me

call me

ask me out

hold me

hug me

kiss me

say you love me

will ya?

Appreciation

shinnonikki — Mon, 26 Dec 2011 06:25:25 +0000

Thank you everyone who came to mummy’s funeral, who cried for her, who cried for me, who sent warm messages, who bought me stuff, who were here with me.

Thank you Nick, for hearing me out the night before.

Thank you Ning, for coming down on the first day of her funeral and stayed throughout the afternoon, i really needed that company.

Thank you Zhihao, Shawn and Jo for coming down the first night, zh and shawn, all 3 days.

Thank you Valerie, Wendy, Carine, Kit, Nat, Jinghui, Calvin, Peilin, Mitchell and Shiting for coming with Royce chocolate, Rilakkuma, Sweets, Starbucks and all the hugs. I felt the love <3

Thank you Chenghao, for the warm message though u couldn’t come with them coz u were overseas but u did on the last day and attended the Cremation, thanks again.

Thank you Desiree, for coming with Jocelyn, Rachael and Shuxian. I couldn’t and shouldn’t have missed out informing you girls. Thank you for checking my blog post.

Thank you Nick, Eric and Ning for staying overnight with me, Hansen, Geric, Junxian and Justine for coming too.

Thank you Alice for coming down during your lunch break on the 3rd day.

Thank you Joanne and Shuxin for taking your time to come though we aren’t very close. and Cindy for staying longer (:

Thank you Jiahuey too

I will stay strong and I love you all <3

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shinnonikki — Sun, 25 Dec 2011 16:05:30 +0000

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it’s different when i’m alone

shinnonikki — Sun, 25 Dec 2011 06:28:42 +0000

我发现自己在别人的面前不容易落泪，但在自己一个人的时候另当别论。

可是我并没有在逞强。我知道伤心一定会，哭也没关系。

所以没有必要担心，因为坚强不是假的。

Personal

shinnonikki — Thu, 15 Dec 2011 08:41:13 +0000

I don’t post my very personal stuff on weebly because i don’t want too many people to know.
But then again, who’s reading?

There’s no private place to write my feelings after my blogspot is gone forever.
The password protected system isn’t really convenient for my closer friends…

Whether it’s here or weebly it’s actually the same. It’s open to public.
Maybe I should open a new blogspot..
But I don’t feel like doing it all over again, from scratch.

Maybe I should go back to writing journals.
But then no one would read it and I want to have readers, even if it’s just one or two.
Coz I want someone out there to be knowing what I’m thinking and how i’m feeling inside.

No, I don’t need a reader

I need a bestfriend

I need a partner